Thursday, June 04, 2009
WARNING: not a happy post.
apparently this diabetes thing is not as easy to control as i thought. i have given myself over a month to get my blood sugar to a reasonable number, but apparently i need more help. i have lost 10 lbs, completely changed how i eat, and started taking more supplements and my blood sugar is still the same. so, today i am going to pick up the medication that i tried so hard to stay off of. i am not happy. i am feeling defeated and pissed that i cannot control it myself. i feel like diabetes had totally taken over my life. i hate the fact that i cannot enjoy a cup of icecream with the kids because it has too much fucking sugar. i hate the fact that i cannot eat anything sugar free because it messes with my stomach too much. i hate the fact that everytime i eat, i have to think "how much sugar does it have?" or "how many carbs are in that". i hate checking my blood sugar every morning because i know it will be high. i hate taking medication. i hate diabetes.
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Hang in there, kiddo. It'll get easier and the increased exercise and diet will pay-off beyond diabetes management. You're doing great, keep it up!
I'm so sorry you have diabetes. It can be frustrating. But, hang in there. It is hard, but you can manage it, I'm sure. Maybe the meds can be temporary, til you get the diet/exercise routine down better. Good Luck! I'll be thinking about you. Oh, love the caricature picts!
Ann
I'm so sorry Laura. I had hypoglycemia growing up (that stabilized for the most part after my pregnancies), but I do remember how horrible it was to give up sugar completely and have to test my blood sugar all the time. I know its not the same as Diabetes, and I'm so sorry that you have to deal with all that. I'm here if you ever need someone to vent to. (((HUGS)))!
~Kristin
It sucks and it does take over your world. For awhile. It is really overwhelming. For awhile. It seems to effect everything. For awhile. Once you get things under control, you don't have to be ruled by it in quite the same way.
Hey girl! I'm sorry taht you had to go the medication route, but glad for your health to improve. Anything new is alwasy tough in the beginning and way out of our comfort zones. Just hang in there. You're doing this for 2 very sweet kiddos...just keep focusing on them and I know it will get better with time. Love ya!
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