i wanted to take pictures of all of our visits, but i forgot the camera last nite! we went over to cutie pie's house with the plans of meeting the cps caseworker and talking about the placement. well, the cps caseworker couldn't make it AGAIN.....i understand that she has a very busy job, but this is the 2nd time she had to cancel. nontheless, we still had a good visit. we went to dinner and the kids ran around and played while we got to talk to cutie pie's foster mother. we then went back to their house to pack up most of her things. it is such a bitter sweet situation. i can't believe that my DAUGHTER will be home in less than a week. but, i have grown to really like cutie pie's foster mother and i know that this is killing her emotionally. i have a hard time feeling excited because i then start to think about how sad she is. adoption is such a fickle friend. it brings unsurmountable joy to families, but also causes horrible heartache for others. i would not change my life or the way we expand our family for anything. but, during these times, i just sometimes wish it wasn't so damn hard to have children. adoption is supposed to be a time of happiness, love, and excitement..........not about paperwork, cancelled meetings, and broken hearts.
ok, i am done. last nite was just a little rough emotionally and i needed to get it out. kaenen's smiley face helps bring me out of my 'funk'. thanks for listening.
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